Wow! What happened? I feel as though I was caught up in a whirlwind. A whirlwind of activities for Christmas, New Year celebrations, my birthday, Martin Luther King celebration and concert and all the other stuff in between. Every day, it seemed, there was something exciting to do, something fantastic. Good times happening yeah! But then, WHAM, I get sick. The flat on my back, can’t think, or do anything of any significance other than be sick. Today, however, I’m finally, FINALLY coming out of it and starting to feel more myself. WHEW! what a way to start the new year. But it’s all good really. I’m still in the land of the living with things to do, places to go, people to meet.
I am not one to make resolutions or even so-called intentions for the new year. For me, this is a process that occurs many, many times throughout the year. There was a time when I would come up with grandiose resolutions but found they never lasted long. Ever! I would be shy of perfection if I kept my resolutions 100 percent. Fantastic, funny and foolish! If my intent is to live life authentically, I can’t do that by telling myself mistruths and setting myself up for the impossible. Even with all my imperfections, I am a perfectly Marsha. No one can be as good as me at being me, perfectly!
Trust me I haven’t always felt this way. There was a time that I would compare myself to other people and ask “why can’t I be more like” or “if I had what they have then I could ______”. It’s never, ever good to compare yourself with another. I’m not speaking of admiring others or having mentors. I’m talking about putting yourself down while building others up. Keep it up and you’ll get lost within yourself and end up loathing the skin you’re in.
In a world that sells images that says “this is what you should look like and if you don’t there’s something wrong with you”, it’s hard not to fall for okey doke. Sometimes it may not be so easy to look in the mirror and say I not only like what I see but I love who I am. I affirm acceptance of self, of who I am right now. Even with all the changes that occur in life, I believe it’s for a higher purpose. I have decided not to fight change. I’m committed to progressing in life, no more settling. I have coaches and mentors helping me to grow into the fullness of who I am. It’s not always easy or pretty but I’m worth it.
Not a resolution but a way of living. Be who you are.
Mary J. Blige says:
So I like what I see when I’m looking at me
When I’m walking past the mirror
No stress through the night, at a time in my life
Ain’t worried about if you feel it
Got my head on straight, I got my mind right
……. my life’s just…..
Fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine